Tbf and I try to run in the mornings before work and the last month or so there have been catering trucks outside of one of the buildings we run by. This morning I told him I knew Silvercup was out by where we live and that I wonder if that’s the building the catering trucks are by. He said probably. Then, when we ran by, I noticed the HUGE Silvercup sign on top of the building. There’s also a big awning that says Silvercup on it. I have to have noticed those before and just forgotten, it’s so hard to miss. Now I wonder if we’ll ever see Alec Baldwin or Tina Fey – Silvercup shoots 30 Rock. They also shoot Gossip Girl – but the only person I know on that show is Michelle Trachtenberg. I guess she’d be exciting to see at 7am.
I WANT her stomach in this video. I have always wanted her stomach in this video. This song always makes me work just a little harder when I’m working out.
I weigh myself every time I go to the gym since I don’t have a scale. I know it’s more accurate to weigh yourself first thing in the morning, but that’s not when I go to the gym, and since I am consistent about when I weigh myself, I figure it can’t be that off.
So at the beginning of the year I weighed 137-138. I would say now on average I am about 133. I have managed to lose about 5 lbs, which I’m totally happy about. What girl wouldn’t be? Don’t we all want to lose weight no matter our size? Ok, maybe not all, but I’d say that’s a pretty consistent woman desire. I would really love to be about 125, so we’ll see what I can do. It’s all going to come down to exercise right now, because I’ve cut so much out of my diet already. I’m eating red meat once every couple weeks now, I haven’t had a Coke in months, I’ve replaced sugary sweets with fruit, I’m eating more vegetables and cooking more of my own food now (that also helps save money), I’m still not really eating fried foods since I gave that up for Lent. I’d say I am pretty disciplined about my diet.
For the most part, this desire for weight loss has come from a skirt I bought. I saw a skirt on the J Crew website that I had to have in Jan. They were sold out across the country – turns out Michelle Obama and I have the same taste – she wore it on a late night show she did an interview on. One night after being out with some friends and a few glasses of wine, I came home and ordered it from someone on EBay. I ordered a 4, cause that’s what I wear and when it came it was the smallest 4 EVER – like European size 4. I can’t wear the skirt as it, it will tear when I sit down, so I’m motivated to lose some of my ass because I really like the skirt. Oh the things women will do!
I need some sort of motivation. I’ve been going to the gym sporadically. Enough by other people’s standards I guess, but it’s really not enough. I used to be so good about getting up and going in the morning…and now I just can’t get my big, lazy butt out of bed. Then I end up getting busy and having events after work or staying late at work and not going in the evening. Last week I have some major resolve to go every day, and then I got sick, so I had to take it easy.
I wanted to get up and go this morning, but when my alarms went off I was so comfortable that I just crawled back into bed. It was great, and now I hate it.
I used to be so motivated to go to the gym every day. I think it was because I had someone I met there – someone who was keeping me accountable. Now I pretty much do it myself, and obviously no one is responsible for my working out, but I don’t have an addictive personality, I’m not addicted to working out. I like it, but sometimes I like other things more.
I really wish I had a gym buddy. Another girl who would be willing to go work out with me. Go to spin, go to pilates, watch tv on the eliptical, etc. I wish. I’m really frustrating myself, and yet I still can’t seem to make the tweaks I need to.
I absolutely do not understand people who are trying to diet or lose weight who bring lean cuisine to work for lunch, then while they’re waiting, go over to the soda machine and drink a Coke (or Diet Coke). How do people not understand how awful soda is for you? It’s unnecessary calories. As many as I can eat in a meal. It’s also a ton of sugar. People always say, “but Diet Coke doesn’t have sugar.” It has aspartame which is suspected of causing cancer and brain tumors and it’s still loaded with empty carbs. It also has high fructose corn syrup in it, which stops your body from realizing you are full, so you keep eating.
Then these people go back to the microwave and pull out their lean cuisine that has mashed potatoes in it. I don’t get it. I’m not saying potatoes are bad for you by any means, but there are so many better choices.
There are so many easy, great resources out there. Tons of health/work out blogs. Trainers. Women’s and Men’s Health websites and magazines. I guess I just don’t understand people who are trying to lose weight or be more healthy who don’t bother to educate themselves or totally disregard something that is important about the process. Why even do it. I’m sure some is better than none, but I would say drinking multiple sodas a day totally cancels out everything else that you are doing.
Well, here I am back in the gym. I’ve been working out very consistently for a month now and haven’t lost a single pound. I know everyone says not to look at the scale, but I also feel the same and my clothes are fitting the same. It’s frustrating. I’m eating well, I’m working out, I’m not eating out…and still I can not drop weight. It really bothers me. I know, everyone says I’m thin and look great, and I totally agree that I’m nowhere near overweight, but I would like to lose a little weight. Tone up some more. I have worked out for a really long time and always go to the gym pretty consistently. I go through phases where I don’t go often enough and these are often induced by my work life schedule. Right now things are calm and I’m spending a lot of time at the gym…but I’m just not noticing a difference. I’ll give it a couple more weeks and we shall see…
So I’ve been going to the gym 5 or 6 times a week for about a month and a half now. I’m just finally beginning to see a slight difference. I have not, however, lost a single pound! Granted, I don’t have a lot of weight to lose, so it will be more difficult for me and yes, you gain muscle, which weighs more than fat, but – come on – not one single pound! I am floating between 132 and 135. I feel like I’m at that point where I’ve gained the muscle and my body has gotten used to working out more intensely, so I should start dropping…maybe? I don’t know, I think 6 weeks of working out is about that turning point where your body has built up muscle, your metabolism is up, and you start to just drop weight. At least in my experience, that’s the way my body works. So, I’m looking to start dropping 2 or 3 pounds a week for a couple weeks. I don’t think I will be able to drop below 122ish though. I don’t have a lot of body fat, so I don’t know that I can lose more than 10 pounds. 10 pounds is a lot for a girl my size…but it is less than 10% my weight.
So one day last week I was stretching, cause I love to stretch, and did some lower ab exercises. I am very cautious about the ab exercises I do because I have a hernia between my top two abs (it feels like the glands in your neck that get swollen when you’re sick), and the dr. said it doesn’t need to be operated on at this point unless it really starts to bother me. The only time it really bothers me is when I work out my upper abs, so I just don’t. Anyway, on my way to the locker room I stopped to ask one of the trainers what would be some good exercises for me to do, because I feel like I’m limited and stagnant. He asked me if I’d be around Saturday at noon to work out with him. I said sure. He said that way he can get my full range of motion and figure out a good work out for me. So, I went and he kicked my abs’ ass for an hour and a half. I ended up having to stop because I got nausious. My abs didn’t hurt and didn’t seem to be tired, it was the rest of me that got worn out. Then Sunday when I woke up I was a little tight. By Sunday night it hurt to laugh/sneeze/cough/go from sitting to standing. Yesterday was slightly worse. Today it’s getting better, but I’m still so sore. It’s awesome! My top abs are sore too! I haven’t worked them out in probably 3 and a half years (I’ve had the hernia for about 4), but he knew exercises I could do that didn’t strain the hernia. So awesome! He said he’ll call me when he has a cancellation…so I might get to work out with him again this week. Can’t wait!
So it’s back to the grind of the gym. After going probably 20 times in an entire quarter, I’m back on the horse. I’ve been to the gym nearly every day of the last 2 weeks and it’s too soon to see results, but I did manage to keep my weight down from “average” while I was away from the gym. Mostly cause I work all the time and never eat I think. Now that I’m back to it I’m hungry ALL THE TIME though. I’ve been eating pasta nearly every day, cause really it’s all that fills me up.
I hate not going to the gym regularly, I always end up feeling so gross. I’d say I feel fat, but I know I’m not fat at all…I just feel really out of shape and I hate that feeling! I don’t feel like I look good in my clothes and it’s totally a mental thing. So going back to the gym makes me feel better and although I still feel like I look gross, it’s totally better than not working out and hopefully by the time I have to spend time in a swim suit I will feel happy with the way I look. Until then I will continue to go to the gym every day.
One thing that’s helping me is that I never have time go to after work, so I just never went. I’ve been good lately about getting my lazy butt up and going before work. I’ve also been good about going on the weekend, which has historically been my rest period…but if I’m not working out during the week, I have no reason to rest.
I haven’t noticed any weight loss or much change yet, but it takes time. I’m around 133 right now, so we’ll see how long that takes to change. I LOVED how I was end of my senior year of college. I floated around 122. I’m shooting for that again. I don’t know that I can manage to lose 10 pounds before Memorial Day, but I’ll take what I can get. If I can lose 7 or 8 I’ll be happy. 125 for Memorial Day. That sounds nice!
So this weekend I got back into going to the gym. As of today I have gone to the gym more in the last 3 days than I did the entire month of February. See, the thing is…I work too much. I’d like to say I just work hard, but there are people out there who work very hard and work 9-6…and get lunch. I’m trying to be better about not working 70 hours a week. I’m getting better at not working so much, but I never feel like my work is done. When I stay late every day, I feel like I get my work done. See, the thing about my job is this…people call all day, I have meetings all day, and I’m having to put fires out and answer emails all day. The only time of the day that I can get some real quality work done is after about 6pm. It suits me to work from 6-10 and knock out project after project. I can turn on my iPod and it’s just me and the computer. But the problem with this is, I get very little sleep, I never get to cook, and I never go to the gym. If I can’t leave work by about 8:30 I don’t really have time to go to the gym seeing as it closes at 11. I know that seems like a lot, but consider commuting, changing, stretching, etc..then I still have a 15 minute walk home.
Anyway, this weekend I went to the gym twice. It was the first time I’d gone since early February and not going to the gym really gets in my head and I start convincing myself that I am gaining weight. Well, I weighed myself on Saturday and I actually had not gained weight at all, it’s totally in my head. The whole body image thing is crazy. I can weigh 132 and if I’m working out I totally feel good about myself and the way I look. If I’m not working out I notice more and more the parts of me that I hate and I convince myself that I’m gaining weight, although the way my clothes fit never changes. So, after these 3 days I don’t want to stop going. I want to go to the gym every day, but that’s just not conducive with my work life. We will see how things pan out, but I already know I’m not going to be able to go to the gym tomorrow, Wed, or Thurs. The suck! I will continue to provide regular, well , probably sporadic updates, on how bad I feel about myself…or maybe how good I feel cause I’m getting up and going to the gym in the morning. Yeah. Right!
