Monthly Archives: July 2006

Fat girl syndrome

So I maintain that this city makes me feel fat and with all the visitors and my laziness lately, I haven’t really been able to work out. Therefore, I feel even larger than I normally do. Working out makes me feel like I look better…and I probably do since it’s keeping me from becomming fat. So everyone in this city is thin and I already feel big when I am working out. So, when I’m not working out, I feel like a damn cow. Today my outfit didn’t help me out at all. I haven’t had a “skinny day” in a long time, but today was most definitely a “fat day.” I feel like shit…like I should go work out and not eat for the rest of my life. Or like I should at least go run for like 3 days. After work I did a little shopping and I went to this botique right near where I live. They have this cute brown dress that had big white polka dots (apparently I’m in to those) on it. They only had a large and a medium on the rack. I asked the girl working what size the one on the manequin in the window was. She told me a small and asked if that’s what I needed. I said yes, then she looked me up and down and said, “why don’t you try the medium on.” Talk about a kick in the head. I feel fat and wish I had the will power to be anorexic. Really.


Yeah, I’m at work.

1. Where were you 1 hour ago?
in a concepting meeting

2. Who will be your next kiss?
the guy I like

3. Is there anything within 10 feet of you?
my desk, my computer, lots of papers, a coke, my cell phone, lots of writing utensils, chair, jeremy, his desk and all that it entails, my bag and all of its contents, giant post its with our creative brainstorming ideas all over them stuck on the walls…I think that’s about it.

4. When is the last time you went to the mall
before I moved to NY…that’s a good 2 months.

5. Are you wearing socks right now?
With the flip flops I wear to work or the heels I wear at work?

6. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
Yup, I saw Miami Vice Saturday night.

7. What was the last thing you had to drink?

8. What are you wearing right now?
Khakis, a red polka dotted, yes, polka dotted halter and flip flops

9. Have you been in a car wash?
The actualy physical car wash you drive your car through or a fundraiser type car wash? Yes to both.

10. Last food you ate?
A Charleston Chew. God I’m healthy!

11. Where were you last week on Saturday?
Hmm…2 days ago or 9? They both included the boy’s place at some point. I went to Brother Jimmy’s this week…but skipped out on it and went to bed early last week.

12. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
No, but I got a knock off Prada purse yesterday…and I’m going to go to Banana Republic after work.

13. When is the last time you ran?
I ran away from Scott at some point Saturday or yesterday. Can’t remember which. Does running down the stairs to catch the subway count? I did that this morning.

14. What is your favorite class?
Just about anything advertising. History of Jazz was pretty fun. :) I think I am going to like my ballroom dancing class too.

15. Name one person you’re thinking about.
Vanessa because I got this from her, Scott because he’s asking my how to get to St. Patrick’s, and the boy because I’m going to have to have some form of “talk” with him tomorrow night.

16. Your dream vacation?
Don’t really have one…but dream date/day? I can tell you about that. I want to be sent to a spa for a mani/pedi/massage/facial, then arrive home to a new dress and shoes laid out on my bed for me to wear to dinner that night. Get picked up and taked to a small plane/helicopter, get flown to some special location (cuba, LA, somewhere not close, but not too far), have a romantic, candle lit, private dinner, then stay in a nice hotel and go back the next day. That can count as a vacation sort of.

17. Last person’s house you were in?
I haven’t been in a house in 2 months. Last apt was Perry’s.

18. When was the last time you cried?
When I was dealing with the insurance woman and all my car stuff in May. She made me so mad the only way I knew to let out my frustration was to cry.

19. Are you in love?

20. Do you hate anyone?
I try not to hate.

21. Last place you saw?
Are you kidding me? My office is a place. The Pfizer building is across the street. I see that out my window. I constantly see lots of places. Yesterday I saw half of New York.

22. What were your plans for today?
Work from 8 to about 6, go to Banana Republic, go home, change, get Scott, go see Rent, go home and go to bed.

23. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
My mom. It’s her birthday!

24. Ever go to camp?
Yup, I’ve been to Girl Scout camp, I’ve been to Vacation Bible School if that counts. I’ve also been to Mormon Girls’ Camp.

25. Were you an honor roll student in school?
Not in high school. Close though. I was on the Dean’s List for most of college.

26.If you could play for one team what would it be?
This is so broad. Play what? Can I just watch so that people don’t find out how bad I suck at most things? If anything, volleyball. For who? No one?

27. What do you want to know about the future?
That I will be happy.

28. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
Always do. Amber Romance by VS. I’ve worn it for 7 years. Time for a new one? Taking donations.

29. Are you hungry?
Rather full actually.

30. Where is your best friend located?
This makes it sound like she’s an object. Can I claim 3? 2 are in Austin, 1 is in Dallas.

31. Do you have a tan?
No. *pout* I haven’t been in the sun all summer. I was so tan when I came up here. When I get back to Texas that first week has already decidedly been named “Operation: Tan Mel”

32. How old do you want to be when you have kids?
Young enough to know better and old enough not to care. (Yes, I realize that’s backwards, but it seems to work better for the kid thing.)

33. Do you collect anything?
Not really. Calories?

34. Last time you got stopped by a cop or got pulled over?
The day I moved from Lubbock to Austin. I was “in a construction zone.” There was NO construction!!! He gave me a warning.

35. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
Is this really a question? Who are you?!?

36. How do you like your drinks?

37. Do you like hot sauce?
I have lived in Texas for 10 years. I think it’s against the law not to.

38. Last time you took a shower?
Last night.

39. Where did you get this survey?
Vanessa’s myspace

40. What is your mood?
I’m alright. Just chillin. Not overwhelmingly good, not bad…just a little contemplative.

41. Are you someones best friend?
Didn’t you just ask this question in another form?

42. Last headache?
Other than my brother? Kidding. I got the beginning of a migraine Saturday before I went to the movie and headed it off with drugs.

43. What’s the last song you listened to?
Feels Like Home (from How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days)


I was supporting myself by waiting tables again. I don’t know where I was working. My family came in and sat in my section: my parents, my brother, Uncle Jack, Aunt Sharon, Johnny, Brian and Danny. Sometimes Uncle Scott, Aunt Mizi, Chris and Sean were there too. Sometimes. So I guess I was sick and not feeling well that day. They got awful service and it took them a good hour to get their food. They were pissed. At one point I got over the the table with the refills of some of their drinks and they were almost all standing. Not a good thing. It was really frustrating for me because I was super busy and I was doing the best I could, but I knew it was bad. My Dad, of all people, started telling me they should get their meal for free. I argued with him and actually started crying because I was so upset that I did such an awful job with my family. The whole time I felt like Uncle Jack and Aunt Sharon weren’t all that let down because they don’t think I’m good at much anyway (which is sort of a reflection of real life). If you’ve ever been a server it was that feeling where you know you’ve done a bad job and you know things are your fault…times 5. I took FOREVER getting anything they asked for, especially drinks, but it wasn’t that I took my time…everything I did just took a long time. Not a good feeling.

You’d think I would learn

Today I was wearing a skirt very much like yesterday’s. I walked over a subway grate on my way home from this afternoon at the same time a train was going under it…skirt in the air again. I am an idiot.

Come back to Texas

I’ve been waiting for someone to write this on my facebook wall, no one has and I still think it’s super fun!

So when your done doing whatever
And when your thru doing whoever
You know that your County will be right here waiting for you….

Come back to Texas
It’s just not the same since you went away
Before you lose your accent
And forget all about the Lonestar State
There’s a seat for you at the rodeo
And I’ve got every slow dance saved
Besides the Mexican food sucks north of here anyway

Guess I’ll sit here and wait
For her to come back home (I’d wish you come back home)
It shouldn’t take very long (so long, so long)
I bet she misses the sunrise
And misses the fruit flies, but I could be wrong

Austin wants you back
Willie Nelson wants you back
Bevo wants you back
And the Bush twins want you back
6th Street wants you back
And Blue Bell wants you back

Leaving early

Yesterday when I had my Marilyn Monroe moment (see bolow), Mom was telling me that they’d just booked flights for Angela and Steven (my only cousins on my dad’s side of the family) for that weekend when Uncle Gary and Liz are going to be in Houston…they weekend right before I come home. I get home Tuesday. Uncle Gary and Liz leave on Monday. They’d told me this before and I wanted to be home for it, but I was ok with letting them have “adult” (I don’t know in what world I’m not an adult, but whatever) time. But when Mom told me about Angela and Steven, that put me over, I couldn’t not go home. I love my family. Nothing trumps my family, not even New York. This morning I paid $70 and changed my flight to the Saturday before I was supposed to be home. I’m missing out on 4 more days here, but really, when I look back in 5 years will I be saying, “that 4 days was AMAZING, I am so glad I stayed in New York” or will I be wishing I’d gone home and regretting those insignificant 4 days spent in New York? I know that it will be the latter. My best and most favorite memories are all times I’ve spent with my family in the pool or bbqing or whatever.

I finish my internship on the 11th and I wanted to be able to take the weekend to pack and relax and stuff. This way I am going to have to be packed (pretty much) before I leave for work Friday, because that afternoon I’m sure we will have a going away party/happy hour and I’m going to want to spend that night with my friends/the boy before I go. It will be a little more work, but I can’t pass up that time with my family. I just can’t. So, New York, to you I bid a premature farewell, but I will be back soon. (If everyone’s reaction to my creative brief is any indication, hopefully I will be back here at CDM.) Much desired family time, here I come!

Marilyn Monroe

Last night I was on the phone with my mom on the way to the subway. We were talking about when I’m coming home and all that. I was walking on a grate. All of the sudden a bunch of wind came out of it. The skirt I was wearing was a very flowey one and the wind immediately blew it up…and kept blowing it up. With my one free hand I tried to hold it down but was unsuccessful. I could have just stepped off the grate, but there was someone next to me on the sidewalk. I was stuck…and embarassed. It was a definite Marilyn Monroe moment.