So this weekend I got back into going to the gym. As of today I have gone to the gym more in the last 3 days than I did the entire month of February. See, the thing is…I work too much. I’d like to say I just work hard, but there are people out there who work very hard and work 9-6…and get lunch. I’m trying to be better about not working 70 hours a week. I’m getting better at not working so much, but I never feel like my work is done. When I stay late every day, I feel like I get my work done. See, the thing about my job is this…people call all day, I have meetings all day, and I’m having to put fires out and answer emails all day. The only time of the day that I can get some real quality work done is after about 6pm. It suits me to work from 6-10 and knock out project after project. I can turn on my iPod and it’s just me and the computer. But the problem with this is, I get very little sleep, I never get to cook, and I never go to the gym. If I can’t leave work by about 8:30 I don’t really have time to go to the gym seeing as it closes at 11. I know that seems like a lot, but consider commuting, changing, stretching, etc..then I still have a 15 minute walk home.
Anyway, this weekend I went to the gym twice. It was the first time I’d gone since early February and not going to the gym really gets in my head and I start convincing myself that I am gaining weight. Well, I weighed myself on Saturday and I actually had not gained weight at all, it’s totally in my head. The whole body image thing is crazy. I can weigh 132 and if I’m working out I totally feel good about myself and the way I look. If I’m not working out I notice more and more the parts of me that I hate and I convince myself that I’m gaining weight, although the way my clothes fit never changes. So, after these 3 days I don’t want to stop going. I want to go to the gym every day, but that’s just not conducive with my work life. We will see how things pan out, but I already know I’m not going to be able to go to the gym tomorrow, Wed, or Thurs. The suck! I will continue to provide regular, well , probably sporadic updates, on how bad I feel about myself…or maybe how good I feel cause I’m getting up and going to the gym in the morning. Yeah. Right!
Today feels like a good productive day. I got up around 10:30, got ready, went to the gym, went to a friend’s where I hung out most of the day. We watched basketball, I started my first of 2 baby blankets that I am knitting, we went to church, we ate lasagna, we watched Top Gun, we made carmelitas, and now I am home and going to go to bed soon.
On my way from the gym to my friend’s I saw a smart car. The first one I’ve seen in the US. I can’t wait for them to be all over the streets here like they are in Europe!
Anyway, today was pretty great. I wish I could do it again tomorrow. Tonight is the first time in a long time that I don’t want to go to work tomorrow. I could explain, but I won’t right now. Lets just say we’ll see how these next 2 weeks go (don’t read too much in to that – no, I did not quit).
So I haven’t written anything really worth while in so long and I feel like I really should, but I don’t know what to write about. My life has been same old. I mostly work all the time and there have been a few frustrations at work, but that’s life. Other than that, I haven’t been to the gym since the beginning of February, but I did actaully bring gym clothes with me today. I spend lots of time reading, knitting, hanging with the bf and watching his bad tv shows. March Madness has also sort of taken over. One of my brackets is TERRIBLE, one is ok and the other one is pretty good.
Last weekend I went to Chicago because plane tickets there were half as much as plane tickets to Houston, so I went there to hang out with the bf’s family. It was an incredible overwhelming weekend where I was quite shy and uncomfortable for most of it. Lots of family and lots of unfamiliar food, but all in all it was nice to be with a family rather than alone in New York.
What else is new with me….uhm…I just finished the Fountainhead again and have picked up Cat’s Cradle to read next.
That’s about all I’ve got. I mean, there’s certainly a lot more, but they’re things I don’t have a lot of time for. All other things I want to write about will be time consuming. Maybe I’ll do it this weekend.
Text from roommate 7:52pm: “Our building is on fire!”
Response from me: “How serious are you?”
Shortly thereafter: Text with picture of firetruck ladder outside his window.
Um, hi, I’m freaking out, but was at Spring Awakening and there was nothing I could do from there…leaving would not stop a fire, so I texted him at intermission: “So, what’s up with the apt?”
Roommate: “Firemen r gone now but [sic]its still [sic]smoky, think it was on the floor below us”
I got home after the show to a perfectly fine, unaffected apartment in which I wouldn’t have known the difference had he not told me. I couldn’t smell anything.
Why did he feel it necessary to tell me when he was already in the apt and things were clearly fine and under control?!
I have been very awol. I think about blogging every night, but once I sit down at home, I just can’t bring myself to get up and go to the computer. I’m on it all day every day. Sometimes for more than 14 hours. I have so much to update on, but work and relationships have sort of taken over my life. I will try hard to update with something meaningful soon. In the meantime, back to trying to keep all my shit under control (or look like it at least) at work.
Saturday I am going to Germany for work. I just recieved my itinerary. The good part is that I don’t have to pay for my plane ticket, hotel or my meals. The bad part? I have to wear “business casual” on the flights to and from. Who dresses up for flights?! On the weekend?!?
It will be a fun trip since I haven’t been to Germany in 10 years, but it looks like I’m going to have very little free time…and I have to take a guided tour of the city. Nothing better than looking like an American tourist. Woot.
Ah well. I’m sure I will have more to say when I get back. I hope it’s fun!